Senpai by Shiki(TMNS) (2024)

yEAH
Demoness rubbing my body
I gave her my soul that's the price to get naughty
Addicted to clout and the money
Know one day I'm gon' be regretting it probably
I give a fuck about none of these bitches
I'm jumping thirst traps like an ollie
I stay in fights with depression and demons

But I knock them out like I'm Ali

I just go lay with my bitch
After that write me some shit
I do this shit till I'm rich
After that I don't exist
When I'm gone know I'll be missed
Or maybe they'll just reminisce
As I fall prey to a succubus kiss
Thought of slitting my wrists when I'm reading a diss

Y'all don't understand me just wanna hear me spit
If I don't drop every week y'all forget
Deep down inside shit make me sick
But I don't blame y'all I know I ain't shit
Only made a couple hits and that's it
Clawing in desperation grasping
Tryna concoct some other dopeness
Anxiety attacks causing distractions

Sometimes my life feel like subtractin'
My foolish pride won't let that happen
So I just opt to drift into madness
Simple as that embrace the sadness
Embrace the dark hurt by the light
Devilish star shining so bright
All through the night always in sight

Yo bitch calling me Senpai (yeah)
Told her tell that to another guy (yeah)
I done fucked around now I'm bleeding from my wrist
EMS gonna think itu0027s suicide (yeah)
Really I just traveled to the other side (yeah)
Meant it when I said ecchi till I die (yeah)
Here for a good not a long time
When I pull up all the hoes like Senpai but I'm not

Yo bitch calling me Senpai (yeah)
Told her tell that to another guy (yeah)
I done fucked around now I'm bleeding from my wrist
EMS gonna think itu0027s suicide (yeah)
Really I just traveled to the other side (yeah)
Meant it when I said ecchi till I die (yeah)
Here for a good not a long time
When I pull up all the hoes like Senpai but I'm not senpai

Yeah

But I'm not senpai
Nah

In the first verse of "Senpai", Shiki captures a visceral struggle between indulgence and regret. The imagery of a "Demoness" suggests a temptation that is both alluring and destructive. The line "I gave her my soul that's the price to get naughty" implies a willingness to sacrifice personal integrity or emotional health for fleeting pleasures, reflecting a deep conflict. The mention of being "addicted to clout and the money" points to a preoccupation with fame and materialism, which often leads to a hollow existence, raising the idea that such pursuits might lead to future regret. Shiki contrasts this lifestyle with personal battles against internal demons, claiming, "I stay in fights with depression and demons," wherein he fights back against feelings of despair. The reference to boxing legend Muhammad Ali emphasizes his resilience; he refuses to be knocked down by the struggles he faces.

The second verse reveals a sense of detachment and existential reflection. After a moment of intimacy with a partner, he reflects on the transient nature of success in the music industry—“After that I don’t exist,” suggesting that achieving wealth and fame may not bring fulfillment. He appears aware of his mortality and the paradox of fame: while people may miss him in his absence, they may only reminisce about his previous works, thus questioning whether his artistry is seen as significant in the long run. This contemplation leads him into darker territory, contemplating self-harm with thoughts of "slitting my wrists." The juxtaposition of writing and anger at criticism indicates a complex relationship with feedback; he craves validation but battles self-doubt and the pressure to constantly produce.

As the song progresses, Shiki dives deeper into the mental struggles he faces. The statement "Sometimes my life feel like subtractin'" signifies a sense of loss or diminishing return in his life experiences. Pride serves as a barrier to seeking help or embracing vulnerability, leading him to “drift into madness.” The need to "embrace the dark hurt by the light" suggests a painful acceptance of his reality; he acknowledges that both light and darkness coexist within him. The “Devilish star shining so bright” might symbolize the pull of his ambitions and desires, but it also reflects the toll such aspirations take on his mental health, creating a tension between light and darkness.

The chorus encapsulates a sense of ironic bravado, where he is referred to as "Senpai." It alludes to a desire for recognition and affection but simultaneously establishes boundaries; he deflects the admiration intended for him. The graphic imagery of "bleeding from my wrist" juxtaposed with the line about misunderstanding by Emergency Medical Services hints at a misinterpretation of his struggles, blurring the lines between his artistic persona and his personal battles. He states, "Here for a good not a long time," indicating a fleeting existence in the spotlight—a metaphor for the broader questions about purpose and legacy in the face of inevitable mortality. Ultimately, the repeated affirmation of "but I'm not senpai" portrays an individual grappling with his identity, one who may appear admirable on the surface but is acutely aware of the shadows lurking underneath.

Demoness rubbing my body
A seductive figure represents my temptations and vices.

I gave her my soul that's the price to get naughty
I sacrificed a part of myself for fleeting pleasures.

Addicted to clout and the money
I find myself consumed by the pursuit of fame and wealth.

Know one day I'm gon' be regretting it probably
I am aware that my choices may lead to future remorse.

I give a fuck about none of these bitches
I've detached myself emotionally from superficial relationships.

I'm jumping thirst traps like an ollie
I engage in attention-seeking behaviors as if they're easy tricks.

I stay in fights with depression and demons
I constantly battle my inner struggles and mental health issues.

But I knock them out like I'm Ali
I confront and overcome my challenges with determination and strength.

I just go lay with my bitch
I seek comfort and intimacy with my partner.

After that write me some shit
Following that, I turn to writing as a form of expression.

I do this shit till I'm rich
I persist in my craft with the goal of achieving financial success.

After that I don't exist
Once I achieve my dreams, I may fade into obscurity.

When I'm gone know I'll be missed
I believe that my absence will leave an impact.

Or maybe they'll just reminisce
Perhaps they'll only look back with nostalgia.

As I fall prey to a succubus kiss
I become a victim of my own temptations and desires.

Thought of slitting my wrists when I'm reading a diss
I feel overwhelmed by negativity and hostile criticism.

Y'all don't understand me just wanna hear me spit
People only care about my music and not my struggles.

If I don't drop every week y'all forget
My relevance is fleeting; I must constantly produce to stay in minds.

Deep down inside shit make me sick
I grapple with inner turmoil that affects my well-being.

But I don't blame y'all I know I ain't shit
I recognize my flaws and accept responsibility for my own worth.

Only made a couple hits and that's it
I have limited notable achievements in my career.

Clawing in desperation grasping
I am frantically searching for something meaningful or fulfilling.

Tryna concoct some other dopeness
I am striving to create something fresh and impactful.

Anxiety attacks causing distractions
My mental struggles interfere with my creative and daily life.

Sometimes my life feel like subtractin'
At times, I feel like I am losing more than I am gaining.

My foolish pride won't let that happen
My arrogance prevents me from accepting defeat or failure.

So I just opt to drift into madness
I choose to embrace chaos as a coping mechanism.

Simple as that embrace the sadness
I find ease in accepting my sorrow.

Embrace the dark hurt by the light
I confront my pain, acknowledging both despair and hope.

Devilish star shining so bright
A charming yet dangerous allure draws me in despite the risks.

All through the night always in sight
This overwhelming presence is ever-constant in my life.

Yo bitch calling me Senpai (yeah)
Someone close to me refers to me with respect and admiration.

Told her tell that to another guy (yeah)
I deflect her sentiments and downplay my significance.

I done fucked around now I'm bleeding from my wrist
I have engaged in risky behavior resulting in emotional pain.

EMS gonna think it's suicide (yeah)
Those around me may misinterpret my struggles as self-harm.

Really I just traveled to the other side (yeah)
I have experienced a shift in my mental state or perspective.

Meant it when I said ecchi till I die (yeah)
I am dedicated to living a lifestyle of indulgence and pleasure.

Here for a good not a long time
I aim to maximize enjoyment, regardless of the duration.

When I pull up all the hoes like Senpai but I'm not
I attract attention but do not see myself as worthy of it.

But I'm not senpai
Ultimately, I feel unworthy of the admiration I receive.


Senpai by Shiki(TMNS) (2024)
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